Friendship = You and I

What are your experiences about friendship as you grow older?

Never really had a bestfriend in my life. It's hard to get one into my list. I always thought that the person who spent the most time with, always go recess with was my bestfriend. I was not entirely wrong though. I have a pyramid ranking of some sort. the top-most, Best friend. The middle, close friends. The last, friends. My world in p1 to p4 didn't have this. My heart was calm and and open field with flowers where everyone can relax. I did have a teeny problem in K2 though. There's this girl. You could say she's a prep. She bullies in the most horrendous way. Primary one, I became the bully. Kind of. I lost a good friend. Primary two. I met another one but we became stranger - normal friends like. I had a new close friend again. I think it was coconut or sammy and sha sha. (Not real names!!!) They sam and shasha moved out from school. shasha went to KL and sam went to canadian international school. Primary four. I had two close friends.

One was wild and the other was quiet. Too quiet. We stuck togerther like glue. But the glue was not super.
I had a great friend whom I met after road-crossing duty in p5. Jolene. She was often misunderstood and we were almost polar opposites. ButI liked her and a bond almost
too strong to break was formed. Many tried to severe this bond without knowing it and Jolene became confused

and rebellious. Some guided her back and the bond strenghtened again. The bond was close to severed again.
I managed to keep her together with a new person included. Winona. A great friend. But they were a bit too oblivious of my feelings.
This year, A hurricane has arrived. Jolene hangs out with new friends. Everyone else too. I became alone but they didn't realise. Somehow, my resistance of letting go went on a max. Now, The ones whom I trust the most are: Lindsey, Taranee, Jamie and Jolene.

How do you cope with the little upsets or the big upsets?

I take a deep breath and try to calm down. My record of angryness was 12 hours. I most probably act like nothing happened sine saying sorry is a difficult thing for me. I love my friends and I can never be too far from them.
I sometimes cry and give them the silent treatment but I can never ever not say sorry to them. Never. A bit harsh but still, that's my own unique personality.


What is a good friend to you?

A good friend. One who understands and gives advice. One who doesn't make fun of you. One who cares for you. One who'll be there when you need them. One who you can spill your secret and problems, worries, stories, past without having to worry if they'll blackmail you. One who influences you to good and not bad things. And most of all, one who YOU understand and she/he can do all those to you without them worrying about anything.

Your best friend may be right beside you but you do not notice. One may want to be your friend but you do not notice. Your best friend may not be human. A pet or even a non-living thing can be your closest companion there is.

I'm still learning about true friendship so, for now, what I'm saying may not me right and may be very harsh to some.